I’m a little late to the party, but http://www.reverb10.com offers a really great way to focus on 2010 and what went well and form intentions for the next year by writing / journaling / blogging every day in response to their prompts. I’ll be doing 2 a day until I catch up. I hope you will join me.
Today’s prompt: Wisdom Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?
Given that my husband has been out of work for the majority of 6 years (doing some consulting and attending law school included) money has been really tight. But my kids, ages 13 and 11, were at the age this summer where I wanted to take them to Washington, D.C. After all, that was my husband’s stomping grounds for most of his life and where we met, married and started our life together. Not to mention the history and culture.
I was creating this for a good four months before I saw the ability to make it happen. There was no hoping, jut knowing it was what I really wanted to do. Once I committed to it in my heart things began to fall into place and not only did we get to see my family and tour the city that I loved, but we also got to extend the trip, thanks to my husband’s mom, and see his family in North Carolina too. Yes, deciding to spend 10 days back on the east coast was the wisest decision I made all year. It wasn’t practical and really didn’t make sense given our financial big picture, but it was brilliant.
While we were in Washington, D.C., I fell in love with it all over again and my kids fell in love for the first time. Yes, it was hot and humid and really difficult for my husband (who has MS) to navigate, but so worth it. So at dusk our last evening there, across the Tidal Basin from the Jefferson Memorial (where my husband proposed to me almost exactly 17 years earlier) I asked him to trust me like I had trusted him. I wanted more than anything to come home.
Since that time we have put our house on the market and have been job searching in Northern Virginia. We are ready to come home. It’s not been a particularly pretty journey since that point as friends and acquaintances have started to distance themselves from us anticipating our move. But it’s right.
So rarely in life have I felt such knowing in my heart…yes, a vacation to the east coast was by far the wisest decision I made this year. As I write this what I’ve learned is that I need to just focus on my knowing and then let it go and trust. Since that knowing in March I have held on so tightly to my desire to move back that it’s like I’m in a revolving door that’s stuck on a shoe and the more I push the more it pushes back. So now I am knowing and releasing.